So guys, i havent posted in here in foreverrrrrr. Sorry. It was my first year at college and it was intense. i failed two of my classes in the spring semester (NOT FOR LACK OF TRYING) by the way. but hey. i hear it happens…
Anyways, its been a little over a year that i was saved and a year since i was baptized in zee water. I’m nearly done with the whole ENTIRE bible and my spiritual walk with the Lord has been filled with its ups and downs. But even with those downs, it was still an utterly amazing one year. ive seen things that make my heart weep in joy and i see things in the future, in my future, that i am very well looking forward to.
right now in this point in time, i reflect back and realize that this walk is about fighting. its about waking up every single morning and making that decision to fight for God and His cause. And i think no matter what we go through, no matter how ugly we are on the inside sometimes, when we decide to either quit and stop our work here or keep going, when we make that decision to move forward, to plow through anything and everything, that’s when God falls in love with us all over again.
i was reading the bible the other day and it was II Timothy 4:6-8
"I say this because i wont be around to help you very much longer. My time has almost run out. Very soon now i will be on my way to heaven. 7 I have fought long and hard for my Lord, and through it all i have kept true to him. And now the time has come for me to stop fighting and rest 8 in heaven a crown is waiting for me which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will give me on the day of his return."
And it made me cry. Because here Paul is writing to Timothy about him leaving this life and how hard he fought for our Jesus and there i was slipping and stagnant in my walk going no where. My determination was fleeting and my faith was being so thinly stretched that i wanted to cry bitter tears. (and you know maybe i did cry some bitter tears) so when i read this i remembered that moment i got saved. How God gave me purpose, filled me with cause. It lit my fire again to keep going until the day our good Lord comes. Because i personally want to gain as many crowns as possible to throw at my King’s feet. I want them all. Because on that day where i gaze upon his face, i want him to smile at me a big huge smile, open his arms and say “Welcome home my dearest Amanda”
So if you are stagnant in your walk and dont know what to do, here is a prayer i want you to say.
“Lord please forgive me because i have been still too long. Ignite me, consume me until there is nothing left in me but you and your goodness. Show me the areas i need to work on and let me trust you in where you are taking me. Shower me in your love, let me remember my cause. Fill me with your spirit until it overflows, and allow me to share you with other people. Jesus, thank you for what you have sacrificed for me though the pain of being rejected, crucificed, hated and mocked was unbearable, you did it all for me and my salvation. Thank you for redeeming me, i can never repay you, i love you. I want to keep fighting, help me to move forward for your glory Lord
Guys & Gals, thats all i have for ya’ll today, blessed be the ones who call upon the name of Jesus.
xxO May the Lord ever be with you